and I now began to purchase various items of feminine attire -- still horribly embarrassed to go into stores--and I soon had ac- quired a rather complete collection, which I began to enjoy wear- ing more and more, until I actually preferred feminine attire to my own.

One day a college friend invited me to his aunt's luxurious winter home and I was extremely impressed and a little awed by my hostess, who was a tall very attractive sophisticated most smartly attired woman of about 40. So I was most fascinated by her extremely smart elegant and feminine appearance and was nervous and shy to even be in her presence. She had her own private secretary and a personal maid both of whom travelled with her and I was not used to associating with people of her fin- ancial status. Her secretary was a very pretty trim polite and efficient appearing neatly and perfectly dressed blonde and her maid was a cute little black haired girl, who was wearing a pretty black taffeta uniform with white organdy collar apron and head- band. The two girls were in their middle 20's about my age - and I thought both were very pretty and that they were most att- ractively and prettily attired and so it was with an unexplainable growing desire and delightful contemplation that I began to think that it would be wonderful if I could be dressed as either of them and be a secretary or a maid to a smartly attired and personable woman as they were. I had never before had a desire to work as a girl or to take a feminine position, but now I was overcome with an intense longing to be dressed and to be working as a girl and I would have given anything to be dressed and working exactly as either of these two pretty girls.

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Now in addition to the desire and preference to dress as a girl, to have been allowed to become a maid or a secretary for some woman and to wear the appropriate and preferred attire would have been my fondest wish dream and desire. So I, who profess to have been definitely masculine, have to actually state that I would, even now, still greatly desire and immediately acc- ept a position as a maid or secretary, even though such would mean greatly reduced income and be anything but practical or

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